One of my first experiences at a circle, was a Native American Sweatlodge. There were a few requirements on entering. It was made clear that you could not be a menstruating woman and enter with everyone else. I asked why this rule was in place, directly to the Shaman leading circle . The Leader in this sweatlodge told me that A womans Menstral blood was powerful ~ if she entered a sweat with others who did not have that power at that time, she would command the energy of the group. Now I am paraphrasing, it was over ten years ago, but it was something that stuck with me. To know that my blood was not necessarily a "curse" as It has been said before, but a source of great energy and strength gave me a new way to look at menstruation. To learn to use my powerful blood in a way that benefits the greater good is a mystery path that I continue on, as well as one that is soul based, it is all not necessarily contained in the male/female form. There are many facets to life, death and rebirth, I do not have the answers to it all, I seek acceptance of my own body, of my soul and spirit. It is a constant challange to ascertain the truth within myself, I cannot do it for anyone else, I can only lead in love and trust.

There are quite a few rituals and events at Pantheacon that exclude people based on gender, age, or even whether or not you are menstruating at that time. What as powerful Rite to Lilith it was, that it has been the focus of these gender issues that have been going on for years. I feel so blessed to be part of this time of great change and growth. Lilith was at ritual that night and she has offered us a great gift. We have been given time, we have discovered our true friendships and loves. I see her in the women I know, her eyes big and searching, I hear her in the first drops of rain and on the howling wind and in the beasts that run through my garden at night. I am excited and contained, I stand strong with my sisters and brothers, we have become closer, we have shared wisdom, and are on the neverending search for truth.